Native American one way or another

A Native American tribe made the news when trying to disenroll a woman, the mother of several children, and remove her family from a tribal home at Christmas.  The ‘tribeswoman’ never knew generations ago, one of her great-greats erroneously enrolled himself as a member of the tribe.  Recently the mistake was uncovered and brought to the tribal council’s attention.  Perhaps nowadays every single tribal person is having their DNA checked to confirm legitimacy as a Native American, down to the specific blood percentage.  After all, certain tribes divide casino earnings, maintain tribal employment, and may receive government benefits like housing, college, and some tax exclusions.

I share the woman’s pain of banishment as a former Native American, though her ordeal brings much more sorrow while mine was inadvertent and self imposed.  With a family hailing from Oklahoma, the story had always been we have some Native American blood.  Mom’s side claimed Choctaw then later Cherokee which Dad’s side had claimed, too.  Turns out, the Cherokee ancestry was either misunderstood or bogus, because I had my ancestral DNA analyzed.  I simply spit in a vial and sent it on to a lab at a cost of $100.  Wild with anticipation, eagerly imagining the possibilities, I sincerely hoped to confirm a Native American lineage of eight percent or more.  I would have accepted one drop.

Uprooted

My DNA analysis was filled with surprises to me, even to my mother who half-jokingly responded I no longer seemed to be her child.  Horse feathers!  Not only am I 100 percent European (85 percent Western European), I have not one drop of Cherokee blood.  I knew about the German, Irish and English roots but was amazed to find some small genetic blood lines from Italy, Greece, ‘Iberian Peninsula,’ Scandinavia, and even European Jew.  Mazel tov!

The analysis supposedly goes back 2,000 years—and in my case, did not coincide with my own ancestral online research.  In other words, I had found official government documents to prove at least one ancestral line was indeed Native American: a Chickasaw woman married to an Early American English settler in Virginia around 1768.  Yet my own spit couldn’t claim a drop of Native American heritage.

I checked with the website handling this research and learned that often our individual DNA does not match the ancestral paper trail, mainly because a person only holds so much DNA.  The vast majority of our true multicultural heritage will not show up in our current bodies of very set DNA proportions.  And it gets even trickier.  Siblings and parents may have totally different ancestral DNA in their spit.  In other words, my father may indeed have five percent Native American ancestry or my mother ten percent, yet that strain may not be passed on to me or my sibling.

American Mutt

Right away I stopped claiming to be a little Cherokee or Native American as I used to do to explain a profile with a knotted nose and increasingly round face.  Oh I could go on and on about my Cherokee roots in the old days.  Doing so now would be a lie.  What became true to me, however, are ancestral roots deep in American history from the nation’s beginnings—and no trails to Texas until the very late 1800s.  But rest assured: I’m Texan through and through, born and raised.  I found that three ancestors fought in the American Revolution.  No one in my family would have ever believed that.  And I found a couple who fought in the Civil War, of course for the Rebel side against northern aggression.

The branch of the Chickasaw Nation was unknown to any of my family.  The lone Native American ancestor was only mentioned as an unnamed Chickasaw maiden.  She had a name.  It just wasn’t easy to say or spell like Mary or Ruth.  So she, and even her parents, went down in Early American documented history nameless.  Yet I exist, and my mother exists, and her father existed, and many others before him because of her.

Another discovery from more recent history was back in the 1930s when two of my paternal and maternal great-greats recorded on the U.S. census their race as ‘Indian,’ meaning American Indian now Native American.  Perhaps this is the situation of the former Native American woman who was kicked out of her tribe.  Why were people claiming to be American Indian in 1930 when previous census records indicate they marked themselves as white?  Maybe there were some government benefits to Americans claiming Native ancestry, no questions asked?  For a long time in American history, white-looking folks never claimed Indian heritage because of the ramifications including job and community loss, verbal and physical assault, and lifelong persecution and humiliation.  Maybe the 1930 census takers encouraged folks to mark their race Indian, if they could claim it, for potential benefits to make up for the U.S. government’s treatment of Native people.  American history clearly taught me our country screwed the ‘Indians’ time and again, breaking every promise and treaty.

I think modern Americans like my parents and grandparents never gave much thought to our ancestral past or heritage.  It was ancient history.  This mindset may have begun after the Civil War, with Southerners picking up the pieces of their ruined lives and moving away … to Texas … to California.  The Old West was when I had figured my family ventured to America, like victims of the Irish potato famine or amidst the flood of European immigrants in the late 19th century.  I was wrong.  My roots run deep in the American soil, and not so much in my beloved Texas, ironic given the title of my blog.

Pssst.  The real reason I did the ancestral DNA was due to one dead branch on my family tree.  A great-grandfather presumably was living under an assumed name.  I did find more than one name from his own census data in 1900, 1910, 1920, and he was one of my relatives who claimed to be Indian in 1930.  In the only photo I’ve seen of him, he was dark or olive complexioned with dark eyes and hair.  Maybe he was Native American, or Italian or Greek.  But on all his census records, he never noted the names of his parents.  He remains a mystery, but I thought I might unlock it through my DNA.  But his secrets remain in the grave.

Americanized          

I think all that Native American blood talk among my Oklahoma family may have been from grandparents and great-grandparents who supported the underdog, their self perception of economic struggles linked to being among the underclass, living in a ruling Anglo-centric society and culture but not reaping the benefits of what minorities today call ‘white privilege.’  There is a hillbilly attitude among my kin, proud outsiders who tend to their own.  We are—and have been for many generations—Americans, fighting in every war, independent, with instincts more cowboy than communal.  As a kid I once asked my grandmother about our heritage.  She didn’t know, figuring herself to be Cherokee and Dutch (she was mistaken) and my grandfather “not much, more Irish than anything.”  But she was the one with Irish roots, only one generation before heading to the New World in the 17th century.

The most rewarding revelation from my ancestral DNA was to learn I am 25 percent Irish.  I never knew it … yet always sensed it, deep in my bones, especially around St. Patrick’s Day and singing songs like Danny Boy, a melody so beautiful and lyrics so sad they touch the soul.  If I have some underdog in me, it is mostly Irish.  Weren’t the Irish the underdogs when pouring into America just a little more than a century ago, called epithets unfit to print?

My parents are essentially one-generation Oklahomans, some of their parents and grandparents not born there at all, except that grandma with whom I conversed about our nationalities.  She was born in Indian Territory 1901.  Maybe having grown up in Oklahoma—where the motto is ‘Native America’ and license plates feature a dream catcher—knowing about and living in the aftermath of the injustice, the filthy lies, the historical mistreatment of the Native people by our own ancestors was too painful.  So a little white lie was created and passed down.  My family never relayed a thing about being Irish, German or British but instead boasted or at least mentioned with a smile of pride a belief in a trace of Indian heritage.  Even so, my folks doubted we had much Native blood.  All could be lost with a finger prick.  More honestly, none of us look Native.  Who would believe we were even a bit Cherokee, least of all the Natives themselves?

Abba dabba Trump

See that man.  Watch that scene.  He is the drama queen.

It’s only been a couple of months now and every day a new drama with this guy, even 3 a.m. Twit storms.  If the intellectual overload is not from the 24-hour news media just trying to report on the U.S. presidency, separating fact from fiction, and assorted televised political pundits spinning in place, then it’s the president himself saying whatever whenever.

It’s got me longing for the previous eight years of relative serenity with our former president: Mr. Calm, Cool and Collected.  President Obama said that was how he would be as president, taking advice from his favorite predecessor, Abraham Lincoln.  The American people, Lincoln and Obama theorized, want a leader who brings a sense of calm, where there is no daily uproar or scandal amidst dozens of investigations, whereby the People can just live their lives in peace and freedom and let their elected leaders take care of governmental affairs.  This is not what we are experiencing now and may never for the next four long years.

Mama Mia

I can’t get this image out of my mind.  It’s when both Obama and Trump met officially in the Oval Office shortly after the election.  Obama and his key commanders met with Trump privately, revealing all the world’s secrets past and present and perhaps U.S. obligations and commitments.  When the two world leaders sat down together for the international photo op, Obama had a certain smile on his face and a knowing twinkle in his eye … while Trump looked like he was sick to his stomach, like he really didn’t want to be President of the United States of America after all.  I’ve seen the cocky Obama countenance in the movie Amadeus.  The look is from Mozart when his secret rival Salieri asks with all humble graciousness for him to look over a new composition.  Mozart takes a swig of wine from the glass goblet in hand and shoots his tongue in his cheek, his eyes smiling with sarcasm.  The Obama look was ‘Checkmate.’  The look was ‘I know all your secrets, man.’  Trump’s look was ‘I’ve bit off more than I can chew.  I’m President, leader of the Free World, the most powerful man on Earth, and it ain’t going to be any fun, too scary’—because the World, the universe, is a very dangerous and uncontrollable place.

Waterloo

How many bets are ongoing about the days left to the Trump presidency?  Or his ultimate demise?  Impeachment?  Heart attack?  Stroke?  Just simply stepping down and leaving it to the rest of us?  There are talk show hosts projecting an itch for war with Trump’s call to beef up the already mighty U.S. military complex.  Trump has managed to offend several world leaders important to the U.S. including those south and north of our borders.  There are millions, tens of millions, of American people hollering to keep ‘Obamacare.’  There is a split among Republicans, some fearing election turnout if Obamacare is killed and not replaced as they all had promised with typical political sincerity.  On the other side are Republicans whose intent always was to dismantle and bury the very idea of affordable health care, hoping no Americans, the ones who matter anyway, would raise a fuss or even miss the humane benefits of universal healthcare.

There is 100% proof from our very own federal investigators of Russian connections and interference in the 2016 U.S. election simply to discredit Hillary Clinton and leave Americans thinking Trump our lone salvation.  And just when Congress is investigating the Russian connection, Trump himself claims President Obama had his New York palace wiretapped.  Obama did insist on a hot and heavy federal investigative report on Russian tampering in the U.S. election whether through hacking the Democratic national website and emails or infiltrating the internet with fake news that passed as legitimate by millions of American readers—Americans not known to take the time and trouble to verify everything they read online.  Obama had this investigation report presented to Congress by the time he left office.  Perhaps that is where President Trump is thinking his home was investigated by the feds.

There is President Trump’s dubious selection of multi-billionaires to lead major tax-supported federal departments, some of these new radical leaders touting their sole intent to dismantle and dissolve from the memory of the American people any benefits from their government programs.  There is the Trump gold-standard budget that would kill federal funding to schools, education, health care, food programs, the arts and humanities, and any type of Democratic program created long ago to help the poor and disenfranchised.  How did Trump ever get away with being a Democrat for most of his very rich life?  And like other former weenie Democrats whose number one goal was to get elected at any and all costs, he proved a turncoat when sensing the rage of angry Americans over global economics and religious indignation—over circumstances they cannot control.  And half the American people bought New Trump.

All the current political upheaval can be blamed on Comedy Central and their Trump roast.  Every single celebrity on the dais told the Big Man over and over again how they hoped he would run for President and what a great President he would be.  This is when the Golden Dream occurred.  But the stars and celebs were referring to the former Cool Trump who was all business and pizzazz and nonreligious and apolitical.

But not only did Trump need to switch parties for some reason, he also needed to go far right.  During the hotly watched televised Republican debates, Trump verbally assaulted every decent contender right in the morals as they were unwilling to punch back.  They could have and should have.  Evidently Americans don’t mind.  Lesson for the future.  The other Republican presidential hopefuls were first gentlemen and second politicians.  Trump came across as the non politician, the savvy businessman whose immense wealth put dollar signs in everyone’s eyes.  Yet he is the consummate politician and displays it and plays it every single day.

It’s been … exhausting—and remains dangerous for all Americans and anyone else living on the planet at this point in time.

A suburban Gibson’s girl

Long before Wal-Mart, there was Gibson’s Discount Center.  That was THE low-cost department store in the small-town Dallas suburb where I grew up in the 1960s and ’70s.  Gibson’s had much more to offer than the nearby Mott’s Five & Dime or Ben Franklin.   Gibson’s was small compared to the sprawling and overstuffed big box chains of today and did not carry groceries.  But when I was a kid, it had all the essentials my working-class family of four could afford: polyester shorts, pants, skirts and dresses; swimsuits; night gowns and children’s sleepwear; gloves and coats; baby stuff; bras, slips, undies, girdles and pantyhose; shoes slightly out of style; cologne and cosmetics; cameras and stereos; jewelry; school supplies, posters, and lunch boxes.  It was like an indoor bazaar.

Since my mother took me and my brother there every week, I got to know the place well.  By age 5, I started exploring the place on my own, simply breaking away from my mother usually shopping the clothing aisles.  It was easy for a little kid to sneak under the racks of hanging clothes.  In our family box of photos, there is a picture of me looking up at the Gibson’s camera clerk, who shot me as I was snooping behind his counter.  I remember the man, dressed in a clerk smock, resembling a dentist.  He was holding a new Polaroid color film camera and aimed down at me, saying enthusiastically “Smile!”  Surprised, I looked up at him, and his snapshot caught me biting my lower lip.  I figured I was in big trouble.  He waited until my mother passed by to give her the photo of me caught committing a crime.  Really he was just trying to sell a camera.  The Gibson folks were professional and friendly and knew my family as weekly regulars.

Parting the bamboo curtain

During the early 1970s, Gibson’s was getting hip to the times and way in the back of the store installed a shopping section called the Tiki Hut.  As I recall it, the section had a thatched roof that reminded me of Gilligan’s Island, a show I watched in reruns every day of my childhood.  I was an older child then and loved exploring the weird items found only inside the Tiki Hut.  First you had to walk through a beaded curtain made of bamboo.  That was really fun to a city kid.  I’d walk back and forth through the bamboo strands.  I thought it was so cool and that someday when I was a teenager I’d want strands of beads to replace my bedroom door.

The steel-and-metal shelves contained an array of knickknacks from Far Away places like Taiwan, the exotic destination stamped on the bottom of most of the items.  There were remnants from a sea-faring life like shells, knotted rope, treasure chests, and lots of brass items like statues of Hindu and Buddha gods and goddesses with strange poses and multiple arms.  There were lots of wood carvings made from coconuts, like a smiling monkey with a pipe and sailor’s hat.  There were incense burners of brass and wood.  And of course this is where you’d find incense like patchouli, a fragrance I’d never in my young life encountered but instantly loved it.  I’m sure I bought my first incense burners there, one long wooden and one tiny cone-shaped brass, though I never knew what to do with them for years.  I didn’t want to start a fire in the house.

One item I got from the Tiki Hut was an imitation shrunken skull with long white hair.  It was made of hard plastic … and glowed in the dark!  I had it hanging in my bedroom when a squeamish young cousin of mine dropped by one night looking for me and ran out screaming after seeing that green skull smiling at her.  That was funny.  But I never knew the small skull would scare anyone.  Guess I was a strange kid, a bit of tomboy.

In retrospect, my venturing into Tiki Hut lit a wanderlust which has remained to this day and age.  I always wanted to travel the world and explore other cultures.  And I was interested in the religions of the world, what people believe when it comes to God and the afterlife and why they believe it.  As peculiar as I found those brass Eastern religion gods with multiple arms and awkward poses, some standing on one foot, I was curious.  But mostly I was afraid to buy one, my mind echoing Bible school teachings about all the other religions and their false gods and evil spirits that abide in places like the Tiki Hut.

Rumours

By the mid ’70s at Gibson’s , Tiki Hut was a place I considered kid stuff.  I had outgrown it and turned my evolving adolescent mind to the record albums in the music department.  I spent hours studying rock album covers: David Bowie, Heart, The Eagles, Alice Cooper, Fleetwood Mac, Jethro Tull.  One album Tull put out, Aqualung, featured ‘scripture’ on it: In the beginning Man created God; and in the image of Man created he him.  The blasphemy was so terribly shocking, and yet I kept reading.  Dangerous stuff for a suburban teen-age girl to be caught in hand.  I felt a little naughty seeing some of the sexual album covers that were the norm in those days.   I’d frequently look over my shoulders.  When I had a few dollars, I bought one of my first albums at Gibson’s, Toulouse Street by the Doobie Brothers, only to open it up at home and find an interior photo of the dudes, well, at a whorehouse.

Yeah in Gibson’s music section I could feel the rebel vibes: young guys with long hair, beards, jeans and denim jackets, often with their girlfriends, thumbing through the albums for purchase.  FM radio or album rock was heard from the latest stereo system for sale.  It was clearly where the cool hung out.  As I recall, I ventured over there many a time from age 10, splitting my trips to Gibson’s between Tiki Hut and the music department.  I fell in love with a clear yellow 45 disc by Grand Funk with the rock hit We’re an American Band and wanted it for my 10th birthday.  I got Billy Preston’s The Kids and Me with his hit Nothing from Nothing on another birthday, and mom worked out a deal with me to do a few weeks of household chores for a Glenn Miller memorial tribute double album set.  I was in junior high band then and discovered a love for Big Band music and jazz.

I don’t recall seeing anyone I knew from school or my neighborhood all those years I roamed around Gibson’s.  Yet I know they shopped there, too.  It was the only place in town to explore and discover who you wanted to be someday when you were your own person.  By the end of the ’70s, a big mall was built way over on another side of town, actually into Dallas.  It was so huge and new that places like Gibson’s couldn’t compete to maintain fickle youth.  Besides, the mall had several huge records shops … and Pier One—where I clearly saw my future in home décor, furniture tastes and clothing from the mystical and alluring Eastern world.  But for me, Gibson’s Tiki Hut and music department opened the door to a new world of ideas, free expression and ancient knowledge.

God save us from American idiots

In the aftermath of 9/11, most of us across the nation continued living our daily lives.  Every morning we’d go to work.  The worldwide web was pretty much shut down as far as news sites, so there wasn’t a lot to read online.  Network TV was carrying 24-hour-a-day coverage, so there weren’t a lot of new entertainment episodes to watch, just cable shows and retro TV.  Airports were closed for a couple of weeks, so no one was going anywhere till the skies were declared safe again.  At night many of us just stayed home, after dinner playing board games, thinking the same thing: Wonder if there’ll be another attack on other American cities?  War was inevitable.  Every American was hurt and vengeful.

Deep within our national sorrow—over this sudden shocking upheaval that dared change our daily lives, affecting jobs, business, industry, banking and the future—there were madmen loose.  Each one acted alone with the same crazy idea to harm those who offended us so gravely.  One was a fellow Texan.  Every week or so in the Mesquite, Balch Springs and Pleasant Grove area, there had been random shootings at convenience stores.  The victims were store clerks operating their own businesses.  Soon the crimes were related, caused by the same assailant.  Police suspected a 9/11 vigilante.

A profile of the murderous assailant was not as clear as his victims.  They were men who appeared at first bigoted glance as Middle Eastern and Muslim: America’s new presumed enemy.  But one of the deceased was from India and was Hindu, his body cremated and his wife, new to Dallas suburban life, left devastated.  Another victim was a Sufi, Middle Eastern but not Muslim, shot because he wore the customary turban.  One man was indeed a Muslim but no terrorist.  All of these men had something in common: brown skin and maybe an accent that hinted of Arabic origins.

Eventually the police caught Mark Stroman, a white supremacist from Balch Springs who during his capital murder trial draped himself in the American flag.  He was sentenced to death row and has since been executed.  Rais Bhuiyan was the Pleasant Grove convenience store owner shot in the face by Stroman.  Bhuiyan was left blind in one eye.  A young, attractive and successful businessman, he had plans to marry in a family arrangement with a woman from his native land in the Middle East.  But his fiancée backed out after his horrible attack, fearing life in America would be precarious, indeed deadly.  Any Muslim would be suspect.

A world without love

With lots of time to think about his attack and attacker, Bhuiyan created a website called World Without Hate.org.  He has come to believe American society’s race and ethnic problems are directly related to our love of technology, perhaps reckless.  With each click for instantaneous revelation or messaging, our humanity has lost its compassion.  Stroman was convicted of a hate crime, but Bhuiyan believes mental illness is the cause of hatred and murder.  He calls on families to be aware of loved ones who talk crazy, shoot off their mouths, swear vengeance toward anyone who’s un-American or non Christian.  These would be people who are always hostile, irritable, depressed, vengeful, anti social, brutish, batterers, alcoholics or hard drug users, unemployed or un-employable.  The only salvation to American society is for people to alert authorities of such a person, no matter how beloved and accepting he may be within his own family.  Because Stroman was treated by his family and friends as a madman, he was left alone with his thoughts and perceptions and spiraling insanity fueled by the 9/11 terrorist attacks against America.

Stroman was one of many 9/11 vigilantes, men who aimed at anyone living in this country who they thought were Muslim and therefore terrorists, all enemies of America.  There were dozens of similar hate crimes nationwide against hundreds of people and their property such as mosques and businesses.  It was a national shame.

If you can believe it, Bhuiyan and Stroman became friends after the trial.  The victim went out of his way to visit his condemned assailant on death row.  He wanted to understand this man—who was so unlike the Americans he befriended and knew on a daily basis from his store and neighborhood.  He had to make the criminally insane somehow redeemable because he needed to heal, not his physical wound but his emotional and spiritual wounds.  Add political wounds, too.

Namaste

India has been a friend to the U.S. for a very long time.  Politically we share a love of democracy and capitalism.  Isn’t it funny how practically every kind of modern American business these days has at least one employee from India?  We find the Indians who immigrate here intelligent, educated, polite, gracious, interesting, and most of all accommodating.  That is the Indian way, to defer to Western man.

But since the election of Trump, America has created a new set of vigilantes with murderous intentions.  These are white men who are just following the punch-hard tactics that got Trump elected president.  Trump came across as speaking for the common man, ensuring red-blooded Americans of jobs, making America great again, beefing up the military to bomb the s*&^ out of Muslim countries where terrorists abide.  Never mind the majority of the populations in the Middle East who are not terrorists, just consecrated Muslims who pray several times a day.  Then there is Trump’s stance on illegal immigration, referring mostly to people from Latin America, which gets twisted into the understanding that All Immigrants Must Go.

Presuming Trump’s election as a sign that white is right and white is might, there is a certain group of white men who consider it open season on anyone living in America who does not physically fit the so-called pure American profile: white Anglo Saxon Christian with deep roots in our nation, several generations removed from the last immigrant family member.  To many Americans, those are the real Americans: the white proud pioneer families whose muscle and ingenuity built this country into the greatest nation on earth.  And there is no convincing them that America had any help in the form of cheap human labor.

Recently a white man in a typical American city went on a shooting rampage while shouting ‘Leave my country.’  He was shooting at men who were from India—not Muslim, not terrorists.  This is one of many hate crimes that have been occurring since the election.  It’s like the fall of 2001 all over again.

India is deeply offended and confused (along with most of the world) with this new hard-line, hard-right political direction in America right now, supported and embraced by tens of millions of Americans with chants like ‘America first.’  In fact, educated Indians who had plans and visas to immigrate to America for set jobs have abruptly canceled their plans.  They indeed are broken hearted.  They had such hopes for a bright future in America, even becoming American citizens, the path many from India have taken for decades.

The world is seeing an ugly side of America, one built on fiction past and present, ignorance and evil racism.  People who live here long enough figure it out.  The one thing a certain type of white Americans hate is brown people, even brown U.S. citizens.  In the minds of that white minority, they have a lot of hate to spread throughout America and around the world—practically everybody on the planet … including the ones who were here first.